Life Begins at 40 2003-09-18 - 9:03 p.m.
My Momma, my heart, my life, now gone forever. She was only 65. At age 40, with her gone, and Dad in Conv. Care and with Alzheimer's, I feel like an orphan. It's been 6 months (3/3/3), but still feels like yesterday. After quiting my job and taking care of her over the last 7 or 8 years, I am now trying to rediscover who I am. I don't know that I ever knew. I have always been the mature one, Mom's Daughter, his Sister, etc....but have no idea where they all leave off and I begin. I do know this though. I have no regrets in making the choice to take care of my Momma. I am able to live the remainder of my life with no regrets. I will make it as she gave me the gift of strength. It is my time to shine! I have a lot of decisions to make. My Masters degree in CIS is now obsolete. I hope some day to get married, but that will happen when it happens. The one thing I am sure of as that I want to be WANTED, not NEEDED. I want to create a life for myself that is so wonderful, I will want to share it with someone. Not have someone BE my life. In a Nutshell: In my endless quest to find myself, I find that I'm still lost!
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